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:: 16 AUGUST 2011 ::

2011-08-16T09:32:00.000-07:00

2nd day of work

Hmm today is the 2nd days of work. I may used to it that i'm not eating lunch for 2 days.. =)) It's a good way to keep fit!! I'm FAT.. Oh gosh~ Duno when can i become slim like model. HAHAHAHAHA.. *kidding*

Btw at night went to hilltop to meet wj & sw.. Sw is gonna go study in SEPTEMBER! All the best.. " Dun miss me too much! "

Soon, we gonna go to KL again.. SHOPPING TIME~~ I miss it.. so now earn more money and used it! Yippy!! =)) but soon end of the year is here.. I hope end of the year may go to Taiwan.. Haihhss... waiting daddy to approve it. If not no hope! =(

:: 15 August 2011 ::

2011-08-15T09:11:00.000-07:00

First day of work

Hmm today is my first day to work after finish my Diploma in Commerce in IS. I really miss school life. Every morning wake up went to school, to see my friends & lecturers.. Than finish school will be hanging around the stall.. But if i did not start work now how am i gonna save money to have fun and buy things i wanted to?

I could not just raise hand and get money from my daddy. It was so sad and painful *ps: which i always did* Money is hard to earn.. But i wanted to earn my money to buy things which i wanted.. There a lots of things i wanna buy.. ='(

Life is getting harder and harder.. You could not always rely on a person forever. You should try on ur own and make ur own world to be success.. Don't u agree with what i say? In college happens those matters was just a small case, but when u went into the reality society you will know the REAL LIFE!! *beware*

Btw i wonder why everyone was asking me the first thing did i get bullied by others?? HAHAHAHA

:: 26 march 2011 ::

2011-02-26T06:47:00.000-08:00

Tired day

Hmm. long time did not update my blog. This few weeks quite busy & tired cause of everyday training & practice dancing. Haihhs. I'm tired need a long rest and go for a travelling. When i can do it? Piano exam soon. It was like 2 months to go. Oh my~ I dun wanna FAIL again.

Btw, the funniest things today is i dream something which i also cannot believe it. Mandy cry because of a guy call brian did not choose her as his bf. hahaha. After i wake up i keep laugh when i flash back all the memory. oh my~ ahahaa. i could not imagine it when it is true. What if the things is really happen i really duno de world will be like how. wakakka.

:: 31 january 2010 ::

2011-01-31T07:08:00.000-08:00

Last day of January.

Time passes so fast.
Few days was so busy & tired of everything that why no time to update!
Hmm. Talent night just pass few days ago.
It was on the 28th of January.
I missing the time we used to gather & practice together!

The DIPLOMERS

Although we did not get any prizes but we were HAPPY & ENJOY!
Btw we all LOVE music much~
I hope that we have another chances to gather together & perform again.

:: 24 January 2011 ::

2011-01-24T07:52:00.000-08:00

Headache till the MAX

It was a tiring day. Haihss.. This few days had happen a lot of things but of course there are good news & bad news also lar. The good news is that our "DIPLOMERS" band are in the final list for the final competition for Talent night! Yupppy~

But than the things which make headache is that people are quitting in the last minutes and i'm ask to join the activities like futsal & volleyball. Why they are so un-responsible? Does they think they studying in those EXPENSIVE SCHOOL than we should listen to them? Or if they are rich than we should follow theirs order?

Why they duno how to use they brain to think? 20 years old still act like 3 years old kiddy! It makes us really fed up everything and feel like give them a smack! I'm lucky that i'm a person which are kind & would not get angry easily by all the time. But it does not mean that i am easy to bully and say. Everyone had it's own limits! Once my limit is on the boiling point! *waahahhahaha* You may not speak n i'll boom till ur "dai fu" also drop!

Why cant i just have my simply life? Should my life being so SUCKS!! Studying in IS is a wrong choice for me at the first time. I should not just follow and agree to study here! I really REGRET which i had made this choice. Can de time reverse? I dun hope to start my life here. It was SUCKS for me!

What to do? We were born to eat, sleep, shit, study, work, old, sick than die! We must follow d order by GOD instruction. Different people different style! We should learn how to SURVIVE!!!

:: 01 January 2011 ::

2010-12-31T22:02:00.001-08:00

New Year

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone! hahaha. It was 2011. Rock the world now~ Before that i went for sg for my holidays. It was so FUN & AWESOME! Sean is so cute! He is my nephew. hahaha. I love him much. He use to wake me & my sister wake up every morning. =)) Miss him much than. Btw, he will be back on may 2011.

"New year! New life! New bf!" Quote by LSL.

D side ways picture.

:: 07 december 2010 ::

2010-12-06T09:18:00.000-08:00

Rainy day.

haihhss. Today is a rainy day. Morning, Noon & Night! Sigh~ What a day. Heart feels running all over the way. What does it thinking about? Should i ask? Should i just forget about it?
Sigh~

No energy to ask keep say forget. Let it be Than. =))

:: 06 december 2010 ::

2010-12-05T10:58:00.000-08:00

Press! Click! Snap!

My Photo shoot by using gor's camera.
Thanks gor!!

JEREMY FUNG's Shooting.

Yesterday i help out gor and work for him. Hmm. i found out that taking picture we should noe a lot of things. It doesn't simply like what i say press, snap & click. It needs a lot of skill inside. Really~ I learn something from there. so there are 3 pieces is which i love the most!! I like it. really. And i enjoy doing this work. Hope to get more job on it. =) BLESS ME!!

:: 02 december 2010 ::

2010-12-02T04:37:00.000-08:00

NEW MONTH

Winter time!! Oh my. It was so fast. 1st was just October than November than now is C'mas Time!! I Love CHRISTMAS. Because of the snow. I hope sabah, KK will having snow one day. hahahaha. But than i noe that miracle will not happen forever. =(

By the way i bought this bottle for my c'mas from STARBUCKS. This is de picture of the bottle. I love it much. If the bottle is having ginger bread man i would LOVE IT x100. Oh my~ I cant wait to go to Singapore and see the decoration for this year.

LIMITED EDITION FROM STARBUCK's CHRISTMAS

Before that, I' been working in 1 Borneo for the last sat & sun for MAS promoter. I was ask to wear the Japanese dress code which people call it as KIMONO. I'm working with a friend call BIBO. She is funny. ahahaha. I think without her we will less fun while working de whole day. Sat i did not tie up my hair and everyone said that i'm a japanese girl. But than on the sun my hair being done like this. Hahahahha. This hair style no people said that i look like one. And people feel that i'm a weirdo. OMG!

THE TWO JAPANESE GIRL TRYING OUT THE STYLE

AH BOY (which is the pets shop's dog in 1B)

RIGHT VIEW

BEHIND VIEW

LEFT VIEW

:: 24 November 2010 ::

2010-11-23T10:41:00.000-08:00

Windy day

Hmm. Monday was the beer competition in Fireflies. Sam & ld join the competition. Hahaha. But than duno why sam was so fast out but than ld stand until de 90 glass than sleep ady. Everyone tot that he was good in it, but than... Maybe is lack of a bit of luck! Hmm. Never mind. As least he did try his best to do it.

Next Monday was the last week of the beer feast for November. They say that they will join but not sure whether they will win for de 1k or not lar. Hope they can but than scared the result was de opposite answer. Btw hope they will win too!

Today i met up with derek & mae in upperstar lintas. Foi, siew li, van, pau & nazri join us for the lunch too. But than seem like derek a bit bored cause he not really noe them well. ahahaha.

SL told me soemthing. She said that she finally have de feel to wanted to go into a new relationship but than de V make he hang in half way. Than she said that she understand how i feel when i went for movie with A than what had happen in one night. I really cant forget that night. Really. Until now. Haihhss.

Guys.. guys.. guys.. What the hell are u all thinking right now? Modern guy's thinking are hard to guess. I'm tired of it.

Sisters ask me to think about new life just dun stuck on de old life. But than i dun think de both guys are my taste. Perhaps i may try on it. I mean To go out more often with them see how they react than oni make a further decision. Anyway, love u sister. Thanks for de advice and i hope u both get what u both wanted too!!

:: 22 November 2010 ::

2010-11-21T11:07:00.000-08:00

F.R.I.E.N.D

Today we went out to have a drink in Sutera again. Pheww~ I didn't expect that our friends were so... I duno how to said it. Just felt that they all are grown up and big guys ady. REALLY. =) I'm glad to heard that. That is a good news. Hahahahaha. GOOD LUCK everyone!!

Btw today we also suddenly said out something that are sad. While we were talking about it we everyone were so emotional and almost drop theirs tear too! Nevermind. We were friends so we will support you boy!! I didn't not expect they all are so good.. Really? I love them much. xoxo.

Everyone is happy than now we are happy. We enjoy dis life now. Really. I really enjoy it now. Although is single life but than still GOOD life. =)

:: 08 November 2010 ::

2010-11-08T05:28:00.000-08:00

Happy Holidays

Basically now I'm having 2 months break . It was a very very long holiday. Btw dis is de new things i'm done in the 1st 2 week. =)) WHEEEEE....

:: 23 October 2010 ::

2010-10-23T06:33:00.000-07:00

FREEDOM

1 year. It totally full 1 year. I have been single for 1 year. Hahahaha. Time passes really very fast nowadays. I wonder why? I'm gonna getting older and older. Hahahaha. Today really got a lot of people getting married. Is it a nice date for them? But for me not really good. I hope that it did not happen on this day! REALLY.

OLD YANN YUAN!

Today was the 1st paper (BCE) for my end of the year term. OMG! I'm gonna finish my course in 2 more semester and i gonna go for other course again. It was really fast. I remember when i 1st come in to IS i think that 2 & half year really long but now almost finish ady. Anyway, i gonna study hard and play hard too^ If not i would not able to enjoy next time! hahaha

Plus, Joanna is going to be engagement soon! OMG!! Anyway, I dun wanted to see my sister one by one getting married than left me alone! =( I think i'll be crying there. Hahahaha. Nevermind i'm pretty sure there are "someone" will be nun!! you noe who u are no need me to mention the name. =)

Anyway, hope those are single will get their loves one one day!!

GOOD LUCK MY DEAR~

:: 14 september 2010 ::

2010-09-14T07:08:00.000-07:00

Rainy day

Hmm. Long time did not update my blog ady. Haihhss. Dis few days feel like life was not colourful at all. I duno why. People can be colourful as they wanted it to be but than me myself i really duno how to make it.

Once there are people asking to part of your life than you will be hanging people all the way. But once you lost it than only eu will be nervous and wanted him to be your. LIFE? Sometimes are happy, sometimes are sad.

I appreciate the day we went out together. Hmm. Good luck in your life. I wonder why i so kind to which someone hurt me so much? Well, maybe i'm not those kinda person are so selfish or poison.

Last saturday went to fishing with what they say the "Gay, Itchy gang" which are our old buddies. Have a lots of fun. But of course everyone get sunburn too. Memorable moments that we have. Please do appreciate what is around you now. One day you may miss everything at once.

:: 05 september 2010 ::

2010-09-05T01:41:00.000-07:00

Confuse

Like & love? What are de between words mean? It was just like a dream. When eu wake up from it than you cant find it anymore. It's the end. Sometimes you really hope that the nice dream would not be end so fast. I think everyone will have the same opinion as me. Hope that the nice dream would not ended now. Haihss. Anyway, will remember 04.09.10 =)

:: 17 August 2010 ::

2010-08-17T08:34:00.000-07:00

Sucks day

I duno why some people will willing to do such things? i really cannot accept it. I duno how to say oh. i just feel very sad after noe-ing eu are dis kind of people. Haihhs. And i feel no face to noe that eu are like dis. When i heard it i really wanna scold eu, but i cant! i Just really can't do that cause i dun wanted our relationship to grow into so bad. I really wanna leave dis place as soon as possible cause i really cannot stand it anymore. Life here are not good and SUCK! I hate it. I really hate it. Once let me me heard about it i really will scold the person gao gao but not eu.

I'm really disappointed on you!

:: 05 August 2010 ::

2010-08-05T07:40:00.000-07:00

Rainy day

Long time didn't update my blog ady. Haihss. Duno why just start type ady type 'haihss' dis word. Hmm, Maybe i really had a lots of things happen around us and no one can feel it. LIFE? Actually what is it about? Why dis is so unfair? Sometimes i feel unfair about something but not dare to say it out or tell it.

Everyone born to have their own life. We cannot control them. They like how than how. What are "F.R.I.E.N.D" for? What are "L.O.V.E" for? I really hope to finish here quickly and than go to other places which no one noe me and i do not noe anyone and stay my life. I just hope to be in a place which are surrounding by the sea. Every morning and evening watch the sunset & sunrise. At night lying down on the big field to watch up the star with my love one. I feel safe. Really. I really feel safe.

I duno why my heart still pain. The hurt are getting worst or i miss him? I really hope someone can stay beside me now. But it was just a dream.

:: 23 july 2010 ::

2010-07-23T10:58:00.000-07:00

Lyrics | Bigbang lyrics - Haru Haru (English Version) lyrics

:: 22 july 2010 ::

2010-07-22T09:50:00.000-07:00

So happy ohh today. I get two sugarbunnies 1 is which colour & another is brown colour. Of course need to thanks to JOANNA & YEN PENG. Which help me and bring me to get it. I go buy happy meal just because of the sugarbunnies. OMG! If let people know it, they may will be think that i'm still small kid la. hahahaha. But i love to collect all this cute stuff. XD Now just left yellow and pink to done the whole collection. *yuppi*

:: 21 July 2010 ::

2010-07-21T10:10:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to Ms. vun (my OB lecturer)

We use to be giving her a big surprise by without she knowing it, who knows the surprise was spoil half way. But anyway we have fun too. We use to be very close when we were just came into Institute Sinaran, but dun know why after a year every one had change a lots. And i feel it was so weird of everyone. It is because of the new campus or everyone is growing up so the attitude changed? Still a question on my mind. I wondering why?

Hmm. Dis few days i could not sleep well and feel like it was a lots of things are bothering me. Exam? Assignment? Relationship? Friends? Which are the most things which attend the highest percentage in my mind. I was very tired but than i cannot sleep in once i'm lying on my bed hugging my teddy bear. I used to be sleep in very fast when i feel tired for the whole day in school without stop of thinking things.

:: 20 july 2010 ::

2010-07-20T08:12:00.000-07:00

Rainy days

Happy birthday to Dear Vanessa!

Hope you have fun tonight! =)

Hmm. This few days keep raining so for everyone who was driving on the road please be careful of it. Because i was almost got an accident dis few days with those stupid people which duno how to drive nicely on the road. Like the road was their father's buy for personal use for them only. Ishk~ So please be careful on the road especially people like me need to wear spec on night time to see more clearly.

Weekend we just have fun on vanessa's birthday party in ice bar. We all have a great time, although need to take care audrey all the time for it. Hahahahha. It was so funny, while i think back of it. A girl which never drunk but the night she get drunk by herself. Pity her also, she love the one but the one did not take any action on her. Haihss. This world is so just unfair. Someone could get what they wanted and what they dun want, but for us, we cant get what we want the most but yet been betrayed by them. =(

:: Love the way you lie ::

2010-07-19T10:16:00.000-07:00

Lyrics | Love The Way You Lie lyrics

:: 19 june 2010 ::

2010-06-19T12:01:00.000-07:00

The worst day ever

Today is IS night & graduation day.I did not went for de both activity. I dun have de mood to join or what. I duno why. I just feel dun wanna present for such things. I hate it! I dun like to study in IS now. I really really hate it.

After that i meet them at FF. I saw him with his new gf. They just pass by beside me and did not even wanna say anything or smile. I hate him!! why? So many gal he dun wanna choose and wanna choose de FUCKING BITCH?? WHY? WHY? she more "hiao" so he like is it? She is pretty mer? She is smart maybe? But she duno how to earn money mah? Gals earn more money than guy got problem or is it wrong is it? Why he wanna think that i earn more money is more geng than him than cant match de mer? Got dis rules? NO lor please! why he wanna be so mean? Just one night. ONLY ONE NIGHT! I go reunion, he went to ice bar to celebrate with his fren. than de 2nd day straight away change. WHY?

I really tired lar. i really wanan find a good bf and stay beside me until we get married. Why just cant i get it? Why?I too ugly? Too fat? Too what? I also duno how to describe ady. I duno what have i done wrong. When i wanna appreciate, but de guy dun really appreciate just like what i do. What he promise me or even written down all also BULLSHIT!

Really hate him now!!

:: 17 june 2010 ::

2010-06-17T09:25:00.000-07:00

Recently, started to do a business which i think most of the people know this product. That is NU life. Hmm. after join this i noe more friend which are new and i does noe them at all. No matter in how many year old. I enjoy such life. =)

Dis few days, my friend also facing a lot of problems. haihss. duno is it after changing to de new campus problem or is ourself de problems. Keep facing a lot of difficulty problems and unbelievable problem.

Me myself did not face a lot of problems but now is starting to find my own new life. I hope i can get it. really? Dis Saturday is our IS graduation day and IS installation night. I did not wanted to attend the dinner. I duno why. this is de 1st time i think like that. before that even though there is not involve in me i also wanted or willing to go but dis is my college and i rather dun go. Maybe really got a lot of bad things will happen so i dun hope to go. =(

:: 13 june 2010 ::

2010-06-13T09:16:00.000-07:00

I heard something dis few days. It's make me feel uncomfortable. should i believe or not? I heard someone said that he end up de relationship is because outside i'm having another bf. This is his classmate told me. When did i do dis? When i heard dis i duno wanted to cry or angry or what. i really very very angry till de tears wanna drop. why? Why till now i still so 'jie yi" and wanna noe what he thinking? why? still love him? Why he wanted to hurt me so deep? WHY??

I HATE HIM SERIOUSLY!! i hate! He put me till de upper level than drop me till de lowest level of my life. i cant even crowl not even climb up. I'm totally lost in the world. really. I hard to find the next guy to be my bf. why? ppl can so easy find and kiss and hug. why i just cant like other? to do so. why? Crying like babies. every night without ppl noe-ing. just put inside my heart?

To stay inside my heart, my memories will be fully loaded. when is de time to delete it? When? I hope can faster to recycle it. but it was hard for me. always i hope, than suddenly it was gone. funny things. why god wanan make me so suffer? i already apology to the person which i had to apology. what eu wanna do to me agen? i really tired. please let me forget everything and go on with my new life. please!

:: 06.06.2010 ::

2010-06-06T08:24:00.000-07:00

Unbelievable day

Oh my gosh! I saw Y today. LOLs. I was like scared de at 1st when my sister told de whole car that he is there which wearing de black cloth which are same as me wearing today. OMG! i really cant believe it i saw him and his family. ahahhahaa. I was like so happy dis cause wanna see his reaction of it. How will he face it. Manatau he keep take out de phone and "SMS"
(konon) and his head was so low dis. I really love de day of today. 060610. My lucky day of my whole year. I duno did he say hi to my mummy but i did say to his parents. It's mean i still respect them as i always do. But i'm still waiting for a day which he will be getting embarrass in front of me and my friend with "the bitch". Than i feel more comfortable ady. And i promise that i wont rmb one of the things of him and delete all de memories in my life.

:: 31 may 2010 ::

2010-05-31T10:20:00.000-07:00

*during eating lunch in suria food court*

Just now i was in damai " bao jian tang " with siew li, gor, kenny and ronald. Than got a car park in. It was wira, and de colour i cant see clearly so i tot is gold colour. Because it was very dark de place so cant really see clearly. Than i quickly go see de car plat and i saw.... (SA3*77k) so i tot was him than de heart beat is so fast. Haihss. Than saw with a big gang of ppl. But that time i didn even think of now is what time? Can he out on so late? NO way! His parents sure wont let him to be. He is not like me can go out anytime.

At last, when i go off and wanted to send siew li home, we pass de car and we saw it was SA3731v. *pheww*

:: 30 may 2010 ::

2010-05-29T09:53:00.000-07:00

Midnight

Haihss. I cant go into bed. Feel like cant sleep in. I didn not wish him in 2010 as what my friends ask me to wish him. Just 2 words "happy birthday" is it so hard to type out and just send to him? I cant send to him i duno why? I feel very hard for me to do it.

Once i think of his good than my minds remind me how to treat me with his irresponsibility to me. Say left than left without one word. He did this cruel things to me? Should i pity him? I duno how. But he did wish me last year in 2009 when i was just arrive KL from SG. he is de last one to greet me.

Actually dis year i was like wanna wish him but my hand wont feel like wanna type de 2 word for him. Am i bad? I duno. I wish de time could turn back so that i wont choose to be with him if i noe de end up result is like dis. I cant stand! I really cant stand. de things just was like yesterday we were so happy but than de next day it gave me a bad news. I cant accept!! really. =(

Tears drop by now also no use. Life still need to go on. without i can live better than before. I'll try my best to do everything without him. anyway, i'll wish him in here. Happy birthday!!

:: 19 may 2010 ::

2010-05-19T07:34:00.001-07:00

18 may 2010

Seeing de sky which are dark in colour which means our feeling is just like it =( miss eu! thinking of eu! Haihss..

Over is over! past is de past! we should move on. why still wanna so stubborn to stay here? we can live without them. Gal, eu must be strong. we were so sad when we saw eu like dis. especially ur best fren who is oweyz beside eu and support eu. But eu are not trusting us and say we are telling other ppl about it. WE DID NOT!! why?

We noe eu are upset but eu should believe us we wont harm eu. Haihss. i really really feel upset about eu. I duno. T.T

:: 17 may 2010 ::

2010-05-17T06:48:00.000-07:00

Saturday night

3 gals staying in magellen to spend theirs time of talking some life thingy.

Life is hard. Love is suffer. Study is headache. Hmm. dis is call life. Once we fall in love that will causes us to de death of the life of it. Everything will change in sudden. As i can see not oni me myself but yet some of de friends around me are de same too. haihhs. hope they are alright about it.

Yesterday i had a nightmare. Once i think that she with de gal, i very angry and till de tear drop in sudden. why? why? Just a night. So sudden. why he wanna treat me so? Love is fair? NO! It's not fair. She can grab and steal from me yet she also can steal from other people in future. It's hurt me. really. T.T

I need a back to stay, to cry, to make me happy, to make me laugh. But why cant i? I really need a person to care to love. It was just like a dream when we were happy, but once we break up it was just like a nightmare. Cant easily forget. Stay inside de heart for 5 months but just one day everything is out and feel sad.

:: 13 may 2010 ::

2010-05-13T08:30:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. dis few days keep on have love problem coming out more and more and more. Just oni two couple but than they make it until like so difficult. i dun get it why? Maybe dis is what we call " love is blind " that why keep having problem which cant solve.

yesterday my brain keep cant stop of thinking theirs problem. why? not my problem at all also. wanna scold also scolded ady, say also said ady. they listen or not is their choice we cant do anything towards them. dun wan them to be regret so trying to scold them as cheap as i can but than i really scared hurt their's heart. What to do? Oweys i'll be de bad person let them hate or angry or scold.

When i was in dis trouble not as so much ppl care me as now we care them. they are so happiness at all. i still rmb when i get hurt i just told de whole story and cry in from of my best fren. i did not cry in everyone's front. i duno why. i just feel like i dun wanna let ppl noe that i cry because of him.

say de truth if one day he really come back i relaly duno what to do. this is 1 year relationship on it. 1 year it was like so long for me. i duno why. Haihss. why de bitch are so FUCK OFF!! i really hate dis kinda life. i really hope to get a good bf and treat me good. but it was so hard to get it. duno why. T.T

:: 04 may 2010 ::

2010-05-03T09:44:00.000-07:00

new day, new semester, new subjects

Hmm.. today is de 1st day for diploma '10 may intake student to come in to institut sinaran to study. Of course is we need to welcome them and see them liang moi or liang zai or not de ryte? hahha. who know they told me that got a gang of gals which put on everything include with fake eye lasher, eye liner, colour contact lens, blusher & foundation. we was like OMG! what is happening in IS? beauty competition or what?

As we saw them we think back when we were just come into de school. we were like so guai dis tie up everything with tidy look. Gosh!! so unbelieveable nowadays de kids duno what are they thinking now? after 10 year they wont old mah? keep make up? haihss. nvm. they still duno after what will happen after 10 years.

:: 01 may 2010 ::

2010-05-01T06:06:00.000-07:00

01.05.10

1st day of may. Hmm. de time pass so fast. It was like yesterday i just break up thn today ady is 5 months that i'm single. It was a good news to me. I did not realise that i've single for so long. Hmmm. but of course for those couple de continue be sweet sweet. especially Vanessa and joanna.

But of course for those break up like siew li & audrey they can find their lovers as soon as possible. Nothing is impossible de as long as that eu think that is worth it. Jia you lo for both of them. Pray for them and may de luck will drop upon them.

Hmm. i need to resit my BIS on may 6. haihss. should i go for it? I'm so scared that my RM50 is waste and like last time IT i resit de paper but yet still de same fail and need to repeat. But of course my chances still have 50:50 lar. Wish me luck for it. and study smart after later going to ice bar. =)

I'm so curious about tonight ice bar what will be happening? fun? can muk zai? ahhaha. not sure. As long as is fun and memoriable than it's ok ler.

:: 29 april 2010 ::

2010-04-29T06:33:00.000-07:00

Result out

Hmm. today just back from labuan. wakaka. had fun there & buy a lots of chocolate. Yum yum!! After arrive jetty, Doris pick us up to school and see our result. As I know is i pass everything even de hardest and de subject which i did not study well also pass but yet BIS i need to RE-SIT de paper. haihss. Why is dis happening to me?

After that we went to Mc.Donald eat lunch. we talk talk talk about de result and everything we know. Who know suddenly SL say that Jo gonna engaged next year after finish her diploma course. we were so shock dis. anyway, we congrat her and wish her all de best too!

:: 24 april 2010 ::

2010-04-24T20:49:00.000-07:00

Saturday night

Hmm. today we are celebrating tham's advance bday at firefly. =) So long neva saw her ady dis. ahahhaa. miss her. ahahaha.

But than tonight happen a lot of things. haihss. Why in dis world guy are so unresponsible. Hmm. What should all de gals to do? Why? Dun wanna think those unhappy things, which pass ady. Now just see for de future and do what i wanted to do. Jia you!

I saw a guy not bad. ahahaha. In firefly. =) but than did get de number. wakakaka. Me and SL are playing choosing see who lose thn go cheer with de guy. Manatau at last is SL lose thn she go cheer with de guy. ahahaha. so funny. I love such challenging. =p

:: 22 april 2010 ::

2010-04-22T03:59:00.000-07:00

Macro-economic dying day

Haihss. Today's paper i really duno how to do? How can i score for it? Once i take up de paper i oni know how to do section B few question. Can i score for 40/100? I dun think so T.T

Tomorrow is de last paper for me than i'll be having one week holiday. Wanted to plan it full and out with people who i neva meet before and which wanted to meet me. =) Yuppi!! Feel happy but than feel like very weird. Donno oh. After that day incident which i 1st day meet de guy in FF.

While i was studyin Ethics just now i say a book which is sometime when in primary we like to exchange de parent with frens. I flip inside de book and saw something. I read and close it back and *smile* Which when i'm with 'him" he promise to do so. But than now.... my life is sucks! It's twice ady. Why? haihss. Nevamind. I'll get get better life than both of it. =)

:: 20 April 2010 ::

2010-04-20T05:45:00.000-07:00

The 3rd day

Today I'm having IMA exam. Haihss. The question i duno wherther to say i hard or easy. Everyone seem like does know how to solve the problem. The question are getting harder and harder for now of our standard. Duno when can till i survive. It was so hard compare to last time. But of course now is getting harder just life our life is getting harder and more challenging for each day.

After exam on de way going home, i received a call from "a guy fren" he called and say with loud tone. I duno why? Not our false also, is themself did not ask people and they expect people to tell them in sudden? Do they? They really make me no mood to study. Haihss. I ady stand for so long do they think i do not have any feeling on it? Huh? Do they?

I really need to take a deep breath!! Dun wanan think so much think. Just do what i wanted to do. All de best to me. Good Luck! I had applyed for de halo forest course. But than it need to interview in kl i think. So many i cant get de reservation to get into it to learn something. I hope and i wish i can!

:: 16 April 2010 ::

2010-04-15T18:13:00.000-07:00

阴天

So long neva update my blog. Haihss. Quite busy sometimes. Today i'm back to write my blog. It was so long that i neva write it. Absent from school study at home. Hmm. exam is around the corner. What should i do? Give up? Continue study hard? I don't know! I really hope to pass everything. Dun wann either re-sit or repeat(especially).

Dis few days is having a lot of issue happening around. Actually what are de meaning of friends? Not it should be the one we really trust & we can talk to when we have any problems? But why nowadays they just act friends like "shit" and do not trust them at all? Is this what call friends? Haihss. Nowadays with last time's people thinking are totally different! Why?

Anyway, exam is around the corner & i greet all the best to them and hope them pass with flying colour. =)

:: 31 December 2009 ::

2009-12-30T20:54:00.000-08:00

Last day of 2009

Here comes de last day of 2009.. I'm sure everyone had a lots of bad things happen on them or around them too~ Because i also facing de same problems as i'm saying.. Hmm.. Everyone seem like unhappy with 2009 life.. Study problems, family problems, finance problems, working problems and de last most people is facing de difficulty of it include myself is de LOVE PROBLEMS!!

Everyone feel so happy when just started de love life but when it come to he end point or should i say it is de dead end for sure is a lots of quarrel-ing things had happen.. Just like my own life.. At 1st we are very happy seldom quarrel although is quarrel after a while sure will be fine soon.. But longer and longer we wont k each other and angry until de next day 2nd day o 3rd day.. Haihhss...

Relationship?? Love relationship is important o friendship relationship is important?? Maybe some say love some say friends.. But for me if u really love de guy thn love is important of cause i say dis does not mean that friends are not important.. They are important too~ If without them how do u survive and pass through all those stupid & sucks time?? When u are alone who accompany u? sad?

A bf does not help u everything.. They just will scold u when they jealous.. Hate you when u sms with others guy or out with them.. Scold u without any reason.. Scold u when they are in bad mood.. WHY??? WHY??? Why in dis world are so UNFAIR!! I really should i continue stay so o go try it my own?

So now should i let u stay in my heart or leave u alone??

:: 29 December 2009 ::

2009-12-28T18:34:00.000-08:00

Illness day

Hmm.. after 10 days back from Singapore & Kl straight away turn sick ady.. Haihss.. So suffer now.. But when i'm at Sg & Kl is so fun because i shops a lots.. Hahahhahahaa.. I love shopping!! YEAH~ Hmm.. i buy a lots of shoes.. OMG.. Almost the whole shop de shoe i buy everything ler.. =] Hmm.. School almost re-open le oo.. Haihss.. Duno what to do.. THink of school re-open than exam and test is coming also.. Haihss.. Nevermind i will be study hard and pass everything and be a successful gal!! Yesterday i go watch chipmunks & chippettes oo.. So cute oo!! Yer.. I like it oo.. Hope to go watch de 2nd time agen.. 3rd time.. ahahahha

:: 17 december 2009 ::

2009-12-16T14:19:00.000-08:00

Leaving KK

Today i'm leaving kk to Singapore.. I hope i have a fun and happy memories trips.. Beside that i hope that when i'm back i really can give up & forget everything.. But i think i love will stay forever inside my heart no matter what had happen.. T.T Love a person is hard but forget a person more hard!! I cant do it.. I need a very very long time to forget it.. Anyway i hope i can do it^^ Oh ya!! Happy bday to SOO WAI KIAT & SELINA YEE. Wish u both dream come true~ My bday i'm not in kk so i duno what will happen for my 2009 bday.. I hope is a memorable too!! I'm sick now.. Haihss.. When de day wanna go travelling than everything also come.. Duno why?

:: 11 december 2009 ::

2009-12-11T06:02:00.000-08:00

No mood

Hmm.. today actually is going out with vanessa and foi but tidak jadi so i didn go out and stay at home to play FB and watch movie. Than night went to cousin full moon at port view for dinner. Actually is very happy cause i didn dream about him whole night i oioi last night but than my sis and mum quarrel because of my sis wanna go out. She wanna go out with her frens. Than my sis keep on fight back what my mum say than my mum gets more angry until my dad also keep quiet. I duno how? I scared if i help than i sure get scold too~ So i keep quiet didn say anything. My heart is very pain and hurt wanna tell "him" but i cant tell him cause he is not de one which i noe before. I duno who should i say to? My tears wanna drop but i stand didn drop. My heart really pain. I wanna tell i really wan him stay beside me and an wei me and tell me what to do. But.. Dun have de chance. Why?? Why now oni happen this such things make me duno what to do? I cant make any decision. Life is so hard. When we grow older than we will be facing more difficulty problems. Haihss.. I really really need a guy to stay beside me to support me tell me de ways to go. Really... I listen to the song “我没有错” my tears drop. The song is saying my feelings i didn do wrong. why? why? Why happen to me??

:: 10 december 2009 ::

2009-12-09T21:15:00.000-08:00

Dreams

This morning i dream a lot.. All also is about "him".. Haihss.. I wanna see him but when i wake up all only dreams.. I feel really very upset.. I duno who can tell so i didn tell anyone just keep inside my heart and write here.. I duno why he do so many things and make me upset but i still love him.. When can i stop loving him? It's very hard for me.. I love him.. I miss him.. What can i do? No matter i find other things to do or find another guy to sms or talk phone but it's still not work.. Haihss.. Why GOD wanna treat me so? Make me so suffer? He change a lot but me... I duno how.. School re-open soon.. Will when i saw him my tears will drop agen? Cry? I feel fears.. Really fear.. I still love him although i'm telling everyone i does love him.. But i HATE him too^^ HATE & LOVE.. What should i do?

:: 06 december 2009 ::

2009-12-06T07:30:00.000-08:00

Moody

What to say wo? Haihss.. It's back the feeling.. Cough till vomit.. I dun like this feeling it makes me feel very suffer.. Why wanna saw him? I tot i saw him i can stand who noes his fren come and ask me where is him?? I duno how to answer and turn my face hugging siew li tears drop.. I rreally cant stand.. It very hurts me.. I noe they keep on scold me ask me to let go and say he is the one should go away not you.. But i duno why i'll left.. I saw him SMOKING, HOLDING GAL'S PURSE... OMG!!! I really cant stand.. His k jie come and comfort me but she seem like not even noe a things.. I really cant forget tonight things.. It's oweyz come out from my mind.. Haihss.. I duno how.. I duno why?? I really almost act another guy is him.. If i really act another guy is him what will happen to me and de guy?? I dun dare to think anymore.. Haihss..

:: 22 November 2009 ::

2009-11-22T09:10:00.001-08:00

Miss you

Hmm.. Today morning i send u a msg but u didn reply me i ady for sure u wont reply cause u hate me and feel annoying maybe is because of my attitude.. I really duno what do u dun like my attitude.. Maybe is i keep on forcing u which like u say so.. But i ady try my best to listen to siew li treat u soft type not those harsh type talking.. I ady try my best to tam u let u do what u wanna do? But i didn no understand what u wan ler.. i really blur.. Now everyone is having problems.. When the time is keep on moving everything is changing including me and you.. This morning i stomach till dun feel like wanna wake up but i scared i alone at home will simply think a lot so stomachache also go out with them.. When they are buying laptop wanna go here and there my stomach keep on feel like uncomfortable.. really? I hope that u r there to say darling siak siak la so that wont so pain those.. But i dun think u will say that to me agen.. After buy the laptop my sister with me quarrel because of the laptop but my daddy say that laptop is not for me yet he will buy another for my own personal use.. When he say that it makes me think about which u say u wanna buy me the winnie the pooh mouse and the sticker to protect the laptop wan.. I think back that than i smile suddenly.. I love winnie the pooh than u also follow me to love him.. I rmb i ever tell you next time my house wanna to have a winnie the pooh shape, than bedsheet, cup all those stuffs.. You rmb that.. I really very happy but for now i dun think i want those cause i dun wan u to be too suffer keep on with other ppl compare which u r de loser or what.. I oweyz say to u keep on compare at last u will lose till very nasty.. Everyone has they own competitor which is ourself.. Dun compare with other just compare to urself u will feel that u oweys lose to urself not others which is ur frens noe ma? U oweys give me comment about the things which i'm facing difficulty i 1st 1st is dun listen but slowly will go into my mind and think back what u say.. Just now my daddy keep on scold me and i really not happy like yesterday he also did scold me.. I hope to tell u than u will tam me and say dun so unhappy those things.. I just can think back which u will oweys be my side and an wei me.. Thanks a lot i really appreciate it.. Just now when i back home i saw the sky a lot of stars which make me think of that day actullay we wanna go see the star but the cloud cover it all.. I saw a lot of star when 23 November 2009 12.23am.. I hope u were beside me and we watch it together which i wanted to at a big big field just me and you.. windy.. no mosquito.. peaceful.. It so lovely.. I just wanna say to you HAPPY ANNIVERSARY darling!! I cant send u msg so i just can write it at here.. Since last time 10 months anniversary u didn not send me msg ady because of we keep on quarrel those things.. I really hope i'll get ur msg and say happy anniversary dear.. Although is just short short.. I really miss it.. T.T My mummy just now got ask about u but i duno how to answer her.. I straight away blur.. @.@ I just hope u r happy than if u r not happy of anything u can come and find me anytime cause im still there for you darling.. "永远只爱你一个" we had make our promise on 23 october 2008 i'll remember it no matter how far i go.. It oweyz stay in my heart.. Always love you and miss you.. From: yann yuan

:: 21 November 2009 ::

2009-11-21T08:43:00.000-08:00

Confuse about you

I really duno what had i do wrong and what had happen to you? Why i keep on ask is because i really wanted to know i dun wan you to keep it on ur heart by urself.. I saw u seem like very stress.. Me as ur gf i just wanted to know about u.. No matter how u say u hate me and say me very annoying.. But i just wanna noe what had make you become like dis.. Maybe i wont like those gal which will say a lot of sweet word and tam u whenever u wanted me to tam you.. But i really duno when u wanted me to tam u or wat? Cause ur person is like when u wan it and than u will ask for it.. Not ma? Maybe just now i talk to u very rude and didn talk to u which u wanted me to be soft and lovely but my menstrual really pain.. I eat medicine ady but still pain.. U ever say that u promise me to tell me everything and me too... I have done my part.. I didn lie to u and did tell u my part but why u dun wanna tell me about ur problems le? I feel like u got a lot of problems to worry but u didn tell me cause u dun wan me to think much.. But when de day we start together not ever promise will tell each and other the problems and we solve it together ma? Yesterday when i was at de reunion dinner i'm keep on thinking at u and keep looking on my phone cause i scared my phone no battery and u cant find me.. I talk less cause my menstrual pain cant talk a lot.. I was very tired actually yesterday really hope that u can help me to drive and help me to massage.. But.... T.T U did scold me but i didn blame you cause i noe u didn mean to do it.. Than just now morning u didn go rest and acc ur mummy go out.. I didn angry at u.. But i just wanted to know why u didn rest and go out didn msg and tell me le? If u send me a msg i'll noe wht are u doing and where are u ma? I called and messaged to you but u didn reply i tot u r sleeping ut than u arent.. The problem is why u dun wanna let me noe u at outside? Is there anything maybe like u scared me dun like it or wat? Can u send me a msg and tell me what had actually happen ma? Dear really wanna noe the truth.. Maybe i'm those rude type de gal not those soft type like manja type those gal.. I noe.. Not many ppl will like my type de i accept this.. Maybe u feel anything make u stress and from me u cant feel any love is it? I really wanna noe everything le darling.. When can u tell me de truth.. I wan the truth from ur heart.. If i'm not mistaken this things ady bother for u for long long time ady but can u tell dear ma? I really hope to be ur listener and accompany by ur side no matter what had happen to u i just hope that we can face it together.. I really dun like like now dis feel.. U keep on avoiding me.. If u dun like anything about me can u just tell me cause i really duno? Plus just now not andrew fault is i ask him to do so.. So if u wanna hate than hate me.. I'll be ok.. T.T "Our promise 23 october 2008" I hope u rmb dis day is how we start together.. Anyway.. If really is anything just msg me and tell me i really dun hope other ppl is ur listener and listen what u wanna complain.. I really hope i'm the one and the only one.. I'll oweyz be ur side no matter how u think of me.. You noe mah? U r de 1st guy say me so.. Actually i cried and cried.. Beside stomach pain, back pain, head pain but not as pain as my heart.. I hope u cool down and think by my side.. But dun like that day than okie ler.. I really cannot accept it.. =[ I rmb de 1st time we take picture is at prom night de 1st picture we take.. I love it very much.. I just hope u can tell me everything dun escape it.. Take care darling.. Good night lao gong.. Sweet dreams & miss u.. Dun forget to drink more water and cover urself with blanket.. If u got anything u can msg me or call me.. I'll be there for u.. =] I believe no matter what problems we meet we can sure solve it easily cause i rmb darling say we are the son of the lord.. So he will help us.. I love you

:: 19 November 2009 ::

2009-11-19T20:48:00.001-08:00

Memories

Everytime when i saw ur pictures and good night msg my tears will drop straight away.. I really duno why? But u tot i've something to lie u which you think that i dun wanna to let u noe about it.. I really didn lie you why my tear drop so suddenly.. Plus when i'm looking at all those last time memories the radio is singing "世界唯一的你” Striaght away my tear keep on drop.. Haihss.. When i saw he call me i stop it ady cause i scared let him noe i cried.. But when i listen dao his voice my tear drop agen.. I really duno why? Is it i too miss him? Myself also cant answer this question.. Plus he keep on ask me i also duno how to answer him.. Haihss.. He really tot i got something secreting from him.. I just feel that i very sad and duno how to say.. De feeling hard to describe.. I hope he really noe what is my feeling and how i feel now la.. =[

:: 18 November 2009 ::

2009-11-18T05:46:00.000-08:00

Rainy Day

Well.. 1st of all wanna greet for those candidate who is taking SPM dis year.. All the best to you all and good luck! Every year is the same not matter is SPM or PMR sure rain heavily.. My year which i'm taking SPM also the same in year 2008.. Today i wake up very early i duno why 1 day earlier than 1 day than last time.. Maybe is scared when wake up my phone didn get his msg.. Cause i'm really scared now because of yesterday we got like a bit not happy because of something about going out thingy.. Actually i drop tear after close the phone i didn told him but i really duno why? Hmm.. but is over so dun think about it lar.. =] new day new hope! I went out with wei jun, her brother & seng wei.. We went to karamunsing to shop around plus they wanna find job for December holiday to earn more money to use.. Than back home feel dizzy and very headache i think is maybe early too early wake up and late eat thing so causes it to happen =[ Than night i just went out with him.. Actually is that day i ask him to promise me to go with me on 18 of november to go see star.. But today keep on rain and the dark cloud all cover the star.. I cant see anything except lightning only T.T Haihss.. Today is really quite dissapointed about it.. I feel like after we have recover back from quarrel what thing we wanna do also cant do it.. I duno why? Haihss.. Anyway.. there is still something that can make me feel more warm & happy is he hold my hand back and hug me.. Although we didn meet up like usual which we last time is almost everyday meet up so often.. Maybe now is enough for me cause i feel that is hard to force or anything.. I duno what myself is saying.. Hmm.. Anyway he happy than i'm happy lor =] All the best for him for his last paper exam~ Dun give up so fast!! Cause i noe u are not that type person fast give up things.. I love you T.T

:: 16 November 2009 ::

2009-11-16T06:42:00.000-08:00

Normal Days

Firstly i wanna wish my boss welborne & jesse HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! They are getting older 1 years old le lo.. Hmm.. Not long after will be my turn.. Haihss.. When grow up 1 years mean that's we gonna face more problems soon.. More problems and problems.. It's getting harder and harder just like the exam which we facing on primary 6 UPSR, form 3 PMR, form 5 SPM and many.. This two days i din go out cause i really duno where i wanted to go.. Thinking of working but not until 1 month I'm here than will be going SG & KL soon.. No ppl would wanna hired a person which just wanna work for few weeks only.. Where can i get money to go for my shopping? Haihss.. This two we didn meet up.. Cause he is having exam also and busy of his things but i;'m used to it ady.. Actually today i did ask him out for dinner and than have a movie but he is not free so we cancel ady.. Didn go out for it.. So he went to club to practice his golf.. When he practising i'm drawing a full body winnie the pooh.. I duno why dis two days keep on wanna draw some cartoon to pass my time.. I realize that when i'm drawing cartoon the time pass very very fast than night ler.. =] Saturday night we didn went out and he stay at my home to acc me to talk.. I very happy cause that day he hug me this is the 1st time he hug me after we quarrel for so long.. I really feel very happy.. Although someone told me that he take picture with others gal very sweet i very.... Duno how to say.. But i still... Hmm.. nvm lar.. It's over.. Dun wanna think so much later i'll be dropping my tear till tired than can sleep just like fridays night... Haihss.. Anyway.. new day new hope!! I hope jesus will giving me which i deserve too~ I love you!! Muacks~

:: 12 November 2009 ::

2009-11-12T19:32:00.000-08:00

Surprising Day

Today wake up around 9am than straight away look at the phone but no msg or either phone call.. Than i send him a msg not a while he reply.. He say that he will be no time to acc me after his exam than busy doing his school thingy.. But i wonder although is busy with school things also wont until night 12 midnight mah.. Than i think he is trying to avoid me or face me.. Than he giving me choice to choose either stay or leave.. I didn answer him back cz i wanna noe what is his answer so i ask him back.. He say he wanna be single cause he feel that is more release he feel.. Than after i received this msg i started to drop my tear than i wanna to find my frens i cant find them on that time i started to think myself why god wanna treat me so? I didn do any things wrong arh.. Why when i got problems cant find someone to solve it? Than at last i call V she pick up my phone thn i started to cry.. Cry until keep on cough and vomit.. Than if i continue cry i cant breath so i stop a while.. Cz tat time i really cant breath at all.. Feel like gonna burst.. I tell her that i rather last time drive faster and got an accident and lose all my memories.. I really really very suffer cz he suddenly drop a "bomb" onto me.. This is de 2nd time.. So i'll scare.. Cz no matter how strong de outlook look like when a gal meet up it's love problem sure fall down till very pain & hurt.. After that my frens bring me out to MC Donald to eat.. When i saw the fries it let me remind that we ever been here and u feed me and play de fries with me.. Tat day i no mood to eat the fries.. >.< All de fries is lung & vanessa eat mostly.. I almost drop my tear but i tahan cz i dun wan them to saw it.. Than after send lung to tuition Ryan bring me go vanessa's house to watch the HK drama but i like not in the mood to watch it.. Than i watch a while than sleep in ler.. Cz morning i cry till my eyes very tired.. Not a while i sleep in ler.. Sleep for half and hour i think than wake up go home.. After arrive home i went back to my own bed i tot i can sleep in who noe my tears started to drop agen.. Why? It because in my rooms remind me that he ever tam me to sleep in than oni he go off... I really miss it.. I miss him a lot that time.. I wanna call him but i scared he wont pick up so i send him a msg and ask him go out to night with me.. At 1st he dun wanted to but at last he promise me to go out.. Than i ask FOOFA will tonight he will be touch by what i had do to him at night? YES. DE-FINELY! I so happy oo.. =] When i'm goin out i so happy & nervous.. But than i scared he wont wanna see me or talk to me or wat.. I really scared than when on the way to his house i cry inside the car 1st.. Cz i dun wanna let him saw it.. I scared he say i wanna cry in front and let him see de.. T.T we went to veda blue for ice cream which is i most like to eat is the mango flavour but when i eat it i feel so disgusting and not nice and it's very hard to swallow in.. I duno why.. My tear keep on stay at the eyes there.. duno whether he saw it o not? I hope not.. After that send her sister home we went to sutera and talk for 1 hour.. At last he tell me what happen and i can feel this is long time ago thingy and he put at his heart for long time.. This is de problems which oweyz i ask him and he cant tell me.. I duno why he wanna put inside his heart if he didn say out for sure i'll easily quarrel with him ar.. If he say it out i'll noe it and i'll arrange the time for him ar.. But he wat also dun say than what should i do ler? ryte? Now i just wanted him at least 1 week find me about 2 or 3 times than enough lor.. He say himself very busy but at night sure free wan but i think he also tired de lar.. Nvm la.. If tired i can help him to massage and make him happy ma so that when he doing his thing who noe get scold by ppl or ppl say him anything.. I just hope he dun use all those thing to use as his reason to avoid me agen.. I really dun like it..

:: 11 November 2009 ::

2009-11-11T07:33:00.000-08:00

Worse day

I really dun like the feel which i had today.. I had it cause he had done twice to me.. He angry can dun pick up phone or either reply msg? Why he can treat me so? I really feel unfair to me.. He wont treat his last time gf like tat but i wonder why he treat me like that.. Maybe i've done wrong things to you make u not happy but her never do so.. I really jealous why u can treat her so good? Every time when u say about her i'll very jealous.. I'm saying the truth for me last the bf tell me such things but i never will jealous or not happy.. That day do u rmb u told me that u ady promise ur classmate to help her out to take her things to the new housing ma? I really very angry & hate you.. Why u never discuss with me before promise her? You ask me promise u not to angry after had listen wat u say.. After listen wat u say i really wanna walk off by myself and dun wann talk to you until my anger is decreasing.. You noe what? If after you told me that and u tam me i think i'll be ok and wont left all de angry inside my stomach.. I really upset upon you tat day.. Yesterday i say i go out with other guys to watch movie is just i say it out when i also feel very angry.. U also noe my period day is getting nearer so i'll get angry easily.. But after that i sms with u properly ady arh.. But u still angry? Wont u care my feel well ma? U only noe how to angry and than dun pick up my phone or reply my msg.. I really duno wat r u angrying maybe is i say i'll bring other guy go out and ask u dun regret.. If it is true i say SORRY to you!! If you saw this and forgivr me than u just msg me lar.. This whole day i also keep on dreaming that we had get better and like last time so happy.. Everyday u disturb me and make me smile.. I miss those days a lot.. Duno whether u also same as me miss those days a lot? Just now i've talk to ur mummy because of you dun wanna come out to see me.. Actually i wanna wait u at outside till u come to see me.. But than ur mummy ask me to go home 1st.. Haihss.. Why when oweyz the time i miss u wanna see u and hug u u also dun wanna come out to see me? Is it u hate me? Dun love me or wat? Can u let me noe ma? I really wanted to noe it.. I really since from de day u went to keningau till today not really sleep well and oweyz dream about u.. U make me miss u a lot.. Until i every night also hugging yang yang to oioi only can oioi in.. If not i cant sleep in.. T.T I really hope that when i menstrual pain u r here beside me to take care me.. Cause the feeling is very nice i love it very much.. Cause u had show ur extra care to me.. I hope i every time also sick seriously so that u can come and take care me.. Just now i really think of accident or drive into the sea and get hurt myself so that u will extra k me.. When i was thinking of this i really almost bang into a car in front of me that time i were shocked because i tot i step break who noe i had step the oil.. Luckily bad of the car not so near me if not i think i cant stay here to write this diary & all my feelings.. And maybe i'll regret why die so early and did not have de enough time to tell u how i feel.. If it is true? Will u regret didn pick up my phone or reply my msg for today ma? And treat me so? I really wanna noe it.. Can u tell me?? But i duno will u see my blog so nvm lar.. I just wanna write it out so that my heart feel more better.. =] I miss de day.. I miss de hug.. I miss de care.. I miss de kiss.. Haihss.. I just can dream for it on my memories.. Today i suddenly miss de 2 small teddy bear that u wont in sdk and gave it for me.. I really miss them.. But duno did they miss theirs daddy & mummy ler? I wonder how they are now?

:: 10 November 2009 ::

2009-11-10T09:05:00.000-08:00

Bad Day for today

Today early morning went out breakfast with him at Beverly.. When we on the way we didn talk to each and another.. I feel that among us there is a very very big gap between both of us.. I duno did he feel it.. For me i really feel totally different than before.. Back home way also de same but is better than morning we still got talk a bit.. But the environment is different.. Is just quite duno what to talk.. I still rmb when he make me angry o long time nvr saw me he will hug me at 1st and say miss me than hold my hand but now i dun think so.. We really totally change a lot.. Since that day we quarrel and he ask me to give him time to think.. I duno when he at keningau did he ever think the problem which had happen between both of us ma? I rmb that night i cry for almost 2 hours non-stop he not even wanna k and say he is sleepy.. Haihss.. My heart really totally smash owhs.. T.T I tot after he back from keningau will do something to make things recover back as before but he like dun k dun k.. Act like nothing happen at all.. I really duno owhs no one could tell me what is he thinking me as his gf also duno what is he thinking.. Later if i say anything he will say i "guo fen" Than i really nothing can say o.. Plus he dun wanna face all de problems i duno why? Is he scared? O he ady dun love me anymore? I really wanna listen de answer from his mouth.. But when i ask him sure he dun wanna answer me i really duno what can i do next? When i have my nap in the noon time i have 2 dreams.. 1 is bad which is he rather fetch another gal go out and ask the gal to sit in his car's front sit rather than ask me to sit in front.. Than after that he acc de gal to buy something at the beach there.. Haihss.. I really stress.. Dream also will dream till all dis things.. U ask urself la is it u is the wan is too "guo fen" treat me so?? HUH?? Dreaming also can dream till u bring another gal rather than wanna bring me.. the other i forget ler.. I still rmb de 1st time u talk to me loudly in front of the marina apartment there u shout at me the next day night i dream u hit me with ur golf stick until i were scared at u so much.. At night u ask me to go bring other guys plus now u off ur phone and dun wanna reply what do u mean now?! U say u hate ppl do this but now u do it say me everytime do dis to u.. U see urself 1st only say me bah.. U hate it i also will hate it wan bah.. I'm not a doll which is u need me than u wan me to stay in front of you when u dun wan me u can treat me like shit.. I really duno wan how to say oo.. I ask u properly but u dun wan.. u wan me to do wat to u agen?? U say lar.. ISHK!!!! U noe mah? Not i dun wanna teach u how to do bah is make me feel that after i teach u how to do ar is like myself "an wei" myself by teaching u how to do bah.. Kinda like myself SS.. Than wat for i wanna teach u i can do to myself ma? right? You really change a lot lar try u look back i give u all the things i 100% sre that u never open after i give u de 1 month.. Haihss.. Jesus i really duno what had i done wrong to him and why he wanna treat me so? If i wanna break up i early ady break up bah.. He is boy but still wont take any action to recover it.. I really really hurt by him very much.. I really duno how to say oo.. scared everything but he like wont scared of all the things wan.. Like say can lose than lose de.. Not even wanna k it.. Than say me wan him to buy things for me o wat.. I NEVER!!!!!! >.< always also use this reason.. I wanna talk peacely with u all about this things do u have the time to let me say so? I dun think so!!

:: 09 November 2009 ::

2009-11-09T07:40:00.000-08:00

Normal day

Today wake up early wanna wait audrey to fetch me up to go to school to help out madam liang & madam lee to carry thing up to the new campus.. Hmm.. we had go in to the new campus to see all the place.. It seems big enough and will be missing our way out from the building.. hahahahaa.. We quite tired de helping out.. But just few ppl oni help out.. Haihss other duno go where ler.. Err.. After that we gal talk talk lo at the study area.. Than we go have our lunch at burger king with xp,drey,siew li & chun.. Than siew li & andrew quarrel fo something again.. Haihss.. duno why oweyz like tat i really dun like it cause i'll feel tired and stress.. Nvm lar.. Just hope they both will go through it lar.. Dun like me than ok ler.. Hmm..

:: 08 November 2009 ::

2009-11-09T07:11:00.000-08:00

New Hopes

Hmm.. few days didn write blog le lo.. I've no time to use the computer cause my mummy will use it till late late than i also lazy wanna use it le lo.. >.<>That night Vanessa & Alvin seem like very close wo.. Even go out or where both also stick together.. ahahaha.. Hope he is the one lar can with Vanessa together so tat she wont make noisy and say so many things agen.. Sunday morning as usual wake up early and go to work.. But i feel very tired when wake up than went to survey likas 1st than go kk plaza survey than lastly go sity mall giant.. Hmm.. Than we saw raymond & shu hoey at city mall.. Than when i'm on the way home i receive a msg say she break up with the guy ler plus she really love him before but is because of the guy lie him to spot check the gal so the gal very hate him and dun love him anymore ler.. When i receive this msg i were shock a while.. Duno what to say and do.. At night i didn go out.. Cause both hand muscle is pain plus my palm of my hand is pain cant drive also.. Maybe is when i work in kk plaza wana walk fast cause gt a lot of malay ppl i scared so i wanna walk faster and get rid of those ppl.. Cause really very scary only me 1 gal to do dis things.. Hmm but what to do.. Wanna earn money so need to work ar.. Than when i walk toward to my car than front come of those "weird weird" ppl which is those kinda buddist ppl or wat i also duno oo keep on wan me to open my door and window to listen what he wanna say.. Very scary lor.. OMG!!

:: 06 November 2009 ::

2009-11-07T00:52:00.000-08:00

Moody day

Today is the 3 days u at keningau.. How are u at there? I feel like got a lot of things wanna talk to you but when i saw u or msg with u i duno what to talk to you.. I duno why.. Maybe we seldom talk phone just msg oni i think.. Hmm.. It's ok for me lar.. =] Err.. today morning as usual wake up wuite early to wait lung's mummy to pick me up to her saloon to straighten my hair.. Vanessa & audrey too!! Than night we went to hyatt for buffet with vanessa & alvin.. Vanessa spent me.. Hmm.. After that we went to fruit monster to have a drink with audrey, ryan, lung & vanessa.. When i park there i've bang the thingy in front the parking space.. Cause too sleepy ady but have nothing lar if not my mummy gonna scold me duno until how owhs >.< Everyone saw me also say me look moody and no mood duno why.. Audrey say maybe miss him.. Hmm.. i Think so gua.. myself also not clear.. He dis 2 days also follow those uncle go drink.. I really duno him owhs.. wont reject them de.. But he say if he reject those uncle will not happy but for me i dun think.. Hmm.. nvm lar.. He like how than can do how lar.. As me i cnt say many things.. Just remind him to take care himself than ok ler.. My heart will feel more better =]

:: MEMORIES ::

2009-11-05T09:05:00.000-08:00

:: 05 NOVEMBER 2009 ::

2009-11-05T08:57:00.000-08:00

Tired day

Yesterday night 3.00am only get to sleep in cause yesterday keep on cry almost cry for 1 hours.. Until today my eyes look like the froggy.. @.@ Morning breakfast didn eat finish duno why cant eat finish nowadays.. Maybe used to it got people help to finish it up.. >.< After that me & drey went to school take result and help out the teacher.. Hmm.. we from 10am start till 2pm finish.. Damn tired owhs.. Hope after that got ppl can help me to massage but there is no one can help me too.. Haihss.. T.T Pity de yann yuan~ If he is at here thn good lo can help me to massage but although he is at here he also very tired wan ar.. so is de same also.. Nvm lar.. I miss him a lot today.. Duno why.. Now is midnight 1.00am i cant sleep well.. Although i do a lot of things o chat with others ppl but still not really can recover yet.. Still need him to help me to recover everything.. Haihzz.. I really duno how oo.. Now de oni things is i hope everything will fine soon and he will changes his attitude lor.. Hope he will understand me i really scared to lose a person which i love plus last time i ever gone through it i dun wanna have de 2nd time.. Hmm.. I jealous u with tat gal i dun like u with her.. If u dun like i with tat guy sure i wont go near with him but did u feel tat de same feeling on me too? U scared i'll be taken by other guy so do i also scared.. Although i noe u say the gal like another gal but she so close to u and everytime also she msg u or either u call her for help of course i'll think very far a.. Same for u if the situation is the same.. i really hope u noe what am i thinking.. >.< Dun say this ler.. Haihss.. Today I get my result.. My result is Management=C, B.English=B, F.Accounting=C Hmm.. all pass but the GPA is low owhs.. I hope to get 4 one day.. So must study hard next time.. =]

:: 04 November 2009 ::

2009-11-04T02:27:00.000-08:00

Moody day

I duno why today i so tired.. Morning dun feel like wanna wake up maybe is yesterday too tired cause didn sleep for few days.. Yesterday i went to find him but when the time i find him my feel told me that among us got something is blocking it.. We are not close like usual or either happy.. Maybe is something between.. Since last Saturday we never see each other for normal couple sure will be missing each other but this time is totally different at all.. I duno.. My feeling feel weird.. But i didn say it out and just put inside my heart cause i tot that i'm thinking too much.. But today when i ask him did dis few days thinking of see me o anything? He answered " I dunno oh.. " Hmm.. when i heard dis my heart really feel the pain & hurt.. I really duno what to say and what to do next.. But at that time what can i do? go kill him? o go slap him? No use at all.. If i force a person to love me and not to leave me does this will work? For me i dun think so cause i ask also only the body not the heart itself so what for i wanna ask for don't leave me? My feeling really hard duno how to make it better or fix it.. Except for leaving this place i really hope that my father noe what am i thinking of now and let me to leave here to go oversea so that no ppl noe where i go and plus i can have a break time.. Last time i used to be wont thinking of this such problems but now i've grow up so sure i'll need to think of this things and wont so happy and cheerful like last time.. Smile only than can pass through 1 days.. Haihss.. No wonder ppl say when grow up sure will face a lot of problems.. At first i dun believe but now i cannot not believe this is the truths cause myself is facing the problems now.. Ask ppl also no one can help it should solve by yourself.. You oweys ask me to give you time? Did u ever think that if i'm the one keep on ask u for time what is ur feelings? Why are u so selfish?? I really hate it!!!!!!!!

:: 03 November 2009 ::

2009-11-02T19:45:00.000-08:00

New Day, New Life

Long time never write my blog.. Miss it very much XD This few weeks really happen a lot of things on me.. I really feel stress and tired.. I never ever feel this way >.< The first and is meaning to the last "OCT 23" is not a sweet memorable for both of us.. Haihss.. Why it is become so unfair to us? We meet a lot of problems and quarrel almost end up.. Mean while use up a lot of energy, tears, anger, feelings and so on.. Both really very suffer & tired.. Just cant we have a normal life and happy memories till the day you left me? Just left how long that you gonna leave me soon? Everyone say me is a tough girl.. But.. Am i?? I don't think so.. Leave than leave for 4 years continuously o either 5 years or either more.. I duno.. That time what should i do? I really cant figure out now.. I just feel fear to face you.. Few days you treat me extra super good than does not even wanna reply o pick up call than good again.. I really feel fears to go on.. Is it life is so interesting? Go up & down just like roller coaster? I really fear to go on my life.. I very jealous why other people can get well life and nicer than mine? I JEALOUS!! Is it now i get more hard & suffer life after that i'll get my super duper perfect life? I hope so.. I really hope so.. I really really scared my life now.. Scared everything just like the stock in a single sec will drop till the worst.. Dear Jesus, I really hope that you can see everything in up there and help me to save my life and turn it into a better life.. I really ady suffer for more than it to be.. I really hope it can stop here.. I everyday bring fear & tears to pass everyday but i dun think i can stand for a longer time period.. Last time usually i'm a cheerful girl which always laugh smile to pass my life but now is the opposite ways which is fear and dropping tears all the times.. Please Jesus help me to go through this.. No one is just like you oweyz be the one to support me and listen to what i'm saying.. T.T

:: 12 march 2009 ::

2009-03-12T17:04:00.000-07:00

Today is our SPM result coming out!! OMG~ Duno what will i get for it^^ Hmm.. As long as all dun fail than can ler.. If not sure i die ady lor.. If all fail in SPM.. Everyone look so nervous.. BTW my sejarah fail but i still manage to get my certificate~ wakakakaka.. =] Thanks god.. Oh ya.. I wanna thank my darling oweyz bring me go library before SPM although my result is not as good as him.. >.< err.. I've try my best.. Cause if i more study on the subject it will make me get more worst mark of it^^ The example is my history subject.. Stupid de owhs.. I just study tat subject for how long owhs.. But still faill.. IShk.. next time wont study so hard for it^^

:: 11 march 2009 ::

2009-03-12T16:58:00.000-07:00

Lung lung is back from NS.. Welcome her home.. Hmm.. We went to upperstar to meet her up.. She become more slimmer.. =p haahaahahahaa.. But the wat still big lar..

Today is de 5th day didn saw my darling.. I really miss him a lot.. Yesterday i drink too fast so my head got a bit dizzy.. @.@ Hmm.. At last i saw my darling today.. I hug him tight & cried.. I duno why it will happen.. Maybe is too miss him ady.. Haihss.. T.T He also shocked a while.. I really hope that i can hug him tight tight forever.. Dun wanna let him to go away from me.. I LOVE YOU!!

:: 10 march 2009 ::

2009-03-12T16:53:00.000-07:00

Today happen a lot of bad things.. Haihss.. Why arh? I also duno how to explain of this matter happen to us.. Hmm.. i really really no mood today.. Than night went out with friends.. After that we went to thai pub at lintas.. raymnd & ming can see that they are very sad and not happy at all.. Haihss.. i pity them also de.. Wan get love from a gal but they cant get it~ *sigh*

:: 08 march 2009 ::

2009-03-09T00:56:00.000-07:00

haihz.. today whole day at hum.. nothing to do.. because duno what thing i can do.. my darling is not here so duno what to do and where to o.. no place to go so just stay at hum de whole day.. miss him a lot.. haiihss.. wondering what is he doin now? hope he had fun too^^ nvm tomorrom he is coming back here lu.. so can see him soon de lor.. i love you darling~ muacks!!

:: 07 march 2009 ::

2009-03-09T00:53:00.000-07:00

today my darling went to brunei ady.. left me alone here.. haihzz >.< than night me sasa audrey & kenneth we went to BED..1st time all gal go oni.. err.. that night is a lot leng zai to see de.. ahahahahhaa.. plus there's a lot of "a pek " too... audrey kena a pek kao and ask for de name.. laugh till me n sasa stomachace.. LOL.. pity audrey too^^ than de night had begin!! got some one got his prince in her life ady lur.. she happy till tonight no need to sleep de lor.. everyday also miss him ady.. ppl love him so much gong!! hahahahahha.. she can zat me ady lor.. cause she also had one.. beside that she cant go "wet" ady.. must everyday stay at hum.. so must be guai moi lor if not no ppl wan de lo.. wakakakakka =]

:: 06 march 2009 ::

2009-03-09T00:50:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. today i get my "P" lecense ler.. the uncle send to my house.. finally can drive de lor.. =] i still cant believe that i've pass my exam.. i tot i'll fail that day.. but i pass also.. night we go novus..

:: 04 march 2009 ::

2009-03-09T00:47:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. today i go for exam JPJ.. So scared this.. haihzz.. but at last i pass it.. hehehehe.. so happy.. i get 17/20.. wakakakaka =] i tot i'll fail o what who noe's i pass ady.. YEAh!! wei jun, lam lam, clement all also pass de JPJ exam.. ahahahahha =] cant wait to drive soon~

:: 22 february 2009 ::

2009-02-22T08:39:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. yesterday night cant sleep well.. 6 o'clock oni sleep in but 8 plus wake up ady.. haihzz... duno why.. cant sleep and not tired also.. than afternoon try to sleep but i cant sleep in.. try to sleep at 1 but 3 wake up cause dream of yesterday not good de things and dream dao he wont msg me and wont find me anymore.. than straight away my tears drop down & cry.. haihzz.. why i become like that ady? say de truth i really scared of him.. i really really scared.. this is de 1st time i met such problem.. i duno what i gonna do after that.. T.T cant sleep wat also cant do.. why arh? i does anything wrong mahx? why treat me so? i just hope to have simply life oni.. what i also dun wan.. i can dun wan anything but i just hope a guy to love me care me siak me.. that oni i need... >.<

:: 21 february 2009 ::

2009-02-21T10:12:00.000-08:00

i duno what happen to you.. why u suddenly change like this? today you make me really really not happy and really dissapointed.. why you dun believe me? this is de 1st time you make me like tat.. no matter ur frens say me how i also okie de? i wont mind if your fren say me how bad i also can tahan.. but jz now i really cant stand you drive so fast i ask you are you angry? you say you not angry.. than after that you tell me truth you say you are a bit angry and dun wan let me noe because you scared me worry and think a lot.. haihzz.. i tell you everything is because i love you so i wanna tell you everything.. but why you wan like tat treat me? i remember you ask me to drive home myself... i duno how to say ady.. i'm really sad lar now.. you say i change ady since i'm at kl but you are de 1 who change? not me.. when i'm at kl i didn even see a guy o neither talk many to them except those selling thing wan.. i ask them for price oni.. other didn talks a lot.. they all got ask number i never give them.. until got ppl say me why so LCLY dun wan talk to them.. i also dun care just because scared you worry not happy o either make you jealous and angry... i care you much so i do dis to you.. you understand my feeling mahx? i'm telling de truth.. last time you not like tat wan.. you very care me siak me love me.. now i'm de 1 scared you will do something bad to me.. you make me feel scary ady.. i really scared.. scared one day you will beat me and duno do what to me.. if you dun wan other guy find me you just tell me.. i'll dun k o wont pick o wont reply any of it.. o you wan me to change number just your family noe my number n my family noe my number? if you wan i can do it straight away just because of you.. i'm not lying you.. i does not have any reason to lie you.. i everything also tell you just because dun wan you to too worry me scared i'm been cheated by other ppl.. i noe you cares me a lot scared i met up those bad ppl.. i can feel it de.. but just now you really too over.. you never treat me like dis before T.T i'm really scared 1 day will happen.. now really happen such things.. when you angry i really cant fight back you noe? you are guy i'm girl.. my heart really hurt.. it's never been so hurt.. you are de 1st guy do such things to me.. i just wanna a guy to siak me cares me love me.. is this really hard to do? other things i dun need it.. i wan last time de you.. i dun wan now de you.. now de you really make me feel scared.. today you are de 1st one and 1st time treat me like dis.. i'm sorry if just now i'm done something wrong o make you angry.. just now when finish dinner my mummy ask me back hum at 10pm than after that my daddy call me to be back home before 12am if not he will lock de door.. if dun believe i still gt de msg.. you can see it.. this is de 1st time he do so so he really will do it.. i didn lie you just you dun believe me tot i'm angry you because of you dun let me go out with de guy..

:: 12 february 2009 ::

2009-02-21T08:54:00.000-08:00

we quarrel because of a girl..

:: 11 february 2009 ::

2009-02-21T08:46:00.000-08:00

Today 1st day i arrive KL.. Joshua and Edward come airport and fetch three of us up.. Jacqueline follow her cousin back home.. 1st day me & wei jun stay at joshua's house sze stay at edward's place.. hmm.. she complain a lot.. she say no aircond those and no pillow no blanket.. so pity of her.. hmm.. de 1st night josh bring us with his fren go BAR CELONA.. hmm.. quite boring de place duno what pub lai de.. but de pub quite special.. errr how to say arh.. is open space wan i mean half of de pub lar not all.. not like KK "the bed" so smelly everyone smoke can smell it.. DAMN suffer inside!!! nvm lar.. never been there also duno de place is how de mah.. ryte? but at KL pub they all eat those medicine wan.. 1 of my fren kena but luckily he didn swallow it *phew*

:: 08 february 2009 ::

2009-02-08T09:38:00.000-08:00

Thanks darling! Hmm.. i like it very much.. this is de 1st teddy he gave me.. i apprieciate it much.. Haihz.. this monkey is going to acc me to kl although you cant accompany me.. but it okiee we still have de chance.. I'll wait for you to bring me to paris~ You promise me ady so cant say NO lor... Still got 2 more days i'm leaving lor.. Duno what you are thinking ler now? I'm wondering.. errr..... This valentine i cant be with you but i hope you enjoy de night also dun just worry about me oni.. you must take care urself also.. Love you darling!

:: 07 february 2009 ::

2009-02-08T09:00:00.000-08:00

Sasa

Channon

Yik

Antony

Weng

Hmm.. Tonight we all really have fun~ kekekeke.. 1st time like tat.. never seen everyone so HIGH!! wow!! Especially my darling.. ahahhahaa.. funny wan.. If i have de video camera sure record it down.. haihz.. nevermind lar.. this is de memories inside my mind than okiee ler.. Other things not important.. Hmm.. we all sure have de 2nd chance to enjoy.. but not oweyz like tat lar.. if not sure been scold by parent tuh!! so small learn how to drink ady.. mummy ask us go school study but we go pub drink alcohol.. ahahahhaha.. shhh~ the things is 1 rmb a guy duno who lai de.. he dance very funny wan look like those 70th & 80th time when they all dancing.. i think he is a bit drunk la.. maybe u ask him back he duno what he had done wan.. tonight we all very HIGH!!! especially all de girls.. ahahhahaha

:: 06 february 2009 ::

2009-02-08T08:52:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY my dear lung lung!!

:: 01-02-09 ::

2009-02-01T04:58:00.000-08:00

hmm.. i duno why everytime when u come back from 1 place you sure change ady wan.. i duno how to say.. maybe u didn feel it.. but i feel it.. i duno why.. when you say wanna out than i dun wanna out you will keep on ask why.. than after that i change my mind i say i wanna out than you will say dun go out.. you wan how de? i wan go out but u dun wan.. than i dun wan than u wan.. you just play play o seroius de? i really cannot get what you are thinking after you back from 1 place.. dis is de 2nd time ady not 1st time.. last time i didn tell you.. cause i think that you will change and realise it no need i tell you.. haihzz.. i really duno how how to do ler.. you say i treat you not good? i duno what.. maybe is when u at there i oweyz out with fren than didn k you o reply ur msg slow.. i think so lar.. maybe is this things make u feels dis.. i apologize to you if i done anything wrong and make you not happy at all.. I'M SORRY..

:: 29 january 2009 ::

2009-02-01T04:56:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR AUDREY

:: 27 january 2008 ::

2009-02-01T04:47:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDWARD LIM

:: 24 january 2009 ::

2009-01-23T20:25:00.000-08:00

Today is de last day i work.. hmm.. after today duno what should i gonna do.. tonight is every ppl say de "ye shi" de day before all family gather around to have a big dinner.. The night very happy and enjoy.. I love it very much.. because can see all the cousin in once..

Here is my dearest fren lung lung coming back tonight.. we gonna go airport to fetch her back.. ahahahhaa.. miss her a lot.. duno she change how ler? black? slim? fat? white? pretty? o neither UGLY? wakakakakaka... this picture is before she went NS.. wanna see her when she back from there for few week.. cant wait to meet her up~

:: 14 january 2009 ::

2009-01-14T06:10:00.000-08:00

Hmm.. got 1 more month today i'm not in kk i'm in kl.. haihzz.. than for sure i'll miss something.. Duno what can i do now.. but nevermind lar as long as we both have de heart to each other than sure no problem.. He is very good to me.. Although sometimes will make me angry but he can make till me "bu she de" to angry him or either scold him.. duno why.. maybe i sayang him & love him.. so i wont scold o angry him (but juz a while sure got lar) hehehehe =] who wont angry wor if our bf himself do wrong things.. right? He cares me a lot i knows.. just no need himself to tell me what he have done to me i can know it by myself.. just like today morning i wanna go for training for work.. he early morning send msg to my fren and ask my fren to bring me to see doctor although he is not free having class he still cares me a lots.. Hmm.. so when i think back last time i oweyz dun believe him is i duno how to think i mean childish thinking.. If we love each other must believe each other no matter in what condition.. but i duno i can give him this feeling o not.. cause i not really know how to show in out in action.. i know sometimes he still not really believe or can feel dao i cares him a lot.. but i promise myself i'll do de best to him.. cause i love him.. =]

:: 心跳 ::

2009-01-14T06:08:00.000-08:00

想跟我吵架我沒那麼無聊
不懂得道歉我沒那麼聰明
好想要回到我們的原點
你又在哭泣我給不了安慰
我又在搖頭有那麼點后悔
愛情的發展已難以回頭卻無法往前走
但身不由己出現在胸口兩顆心能塞幾個問號
愛讓我們流多少眼淚
你的眼神充滿美麗帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始能不能給一秒
等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好

:: everything ::

2009-01-14T05:55:00.000-08:00

故事里的起承转合有一些忘记
做了多少错误的选择
原来波折才暗示着该走的方向
指引你我来到这一刻
就算别人都说我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃
Cause Youre My Everything
就一个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天
永远从此刻开始算起
你的爱是我的Everything
辽阔天际巧合相遇有多少机率
多少烟火坠落无痕迹
因为幸福没有捷径难免要绕道
不被看好越是要走到
你就是Everything
就这个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
只要你说一声愿意
所有的未来才有意义
就如这个原因我会永远记住这种感觉

:: Love Is Blind ::

2009-01-11T17:08:00.000-08:00

Do you agree? Why guy can do such bad things to his gf.. Don't they feel very weird o feel bad mahx? Haihz.. T.T pity her.. When he change to become like that? Since when? It make people feel scared.. No brain No heart.. To those couple please dun treat ur gf or bf too "OVER" it will make others feel scared..

:: 感觉 ::

2009-01-10T07:54:00.000-08:00

hmm.. i duno why i so many complain especially with him.. Izit my permission too hard to reach o wat? i really duno.. can someone tell me? Why i never had dis feel before.. i really can feel it de bad feeling is back and i really hate it~ i dun like dis feeling.. i apprieciate de good memories but hate de bad memories.. Always de bad wan will stay forever.. Now de time we together are not de same just like a person stay in oversea another stay in m'sia different planet.. Why will dis happen to us.. i really dun hope that to be happen.. haihzz.. I still can stand it for now.. Let GOD to be the one to fix our life but please dun play with it.. My tear are not easy to out except there is something make me to drop it~ I really hope i'll be FOREVER child wont grow up need to face many problem.. grow up need to face many problem not oni love problem sometimes family problem o either fren problem.. hmm.. it okiee lar no need to think so many dehx.. Just over like normal dun think much.. oweyz say ppl think much myself also think much mahx.. got mouth say ppl no mouth say ppl.. stupid!! i hate myself!! Always cant control... why? feeling?

F-R-I-E-N-D-S-H-I-P

2009-01-08T09:15:00.000-08:00

Take care my old fren

:: MY DARLING ::

2009-01-05T01:04:00.000-08:00

:: 04 january 2008 ::

2009-01-05T00:46:00.000-08:00

OUR MEMORIES

Today we help dearest fren tham tham to make her farewell party.. we all go home very early because the next day some of them need to go to school but de other no school.. we will be missing them a lot.. that day edward going now is tham tham.. we all is growing and everyone is changing their life.. some goes to N.S haven back yet.. need wait for 3 month.. it's quiet long time.. but i hope they have fun inside there.. hmm.. i miss de time we pass it through for dis 5 years.. good memories bad memories and many many memories.. It's de time to change new thing.. ALL THE BEST to all of you~

stupid pose~

The girls

lam what are you thinking??

tham tham

Rabbit girl (gonna miss her much)

:: 03 january 2009 ::

2009-01-02T08:52:00.000-08:00

Edward's farewell st tg aru RSTC.. After that we went to E-WEST.. hmm.. gonna miss dis fren a lot.. although we have been together for a few months.. i really apology what i've done to you.. i'm sorry~ but i hope u're fine with de rest.. all de best to you.. if tomorrow i can wake up than oni go send u lar.. but not far also bahx.. LOL take care my dear fren EDWARD~

:: 30 december 2008 ::

2009-01-01T04:08:00.000-08:00

Today is darling sister bday.. so i went to his house for dinner.. actually i tot it was very scary cause i dono how to face his family.. i so scared maybe is because i watch too many movie make me feel scared lor.. but after i went there it was normal not scared as what i think before that.. kekeke.. hmm.. so.. dis is de 1st time.. sure will a bit shy de lar i think.. i very jealous they family.. because they have a grandma so siak them.. no matter is which grandchildren.. and they very respect their grandma..

After that we went to tham's house to celebrate chun fong bday.. hahahahahaa.. so funny dis we alll.. we all help raymond to make up than give it to chun fong.. wakakakka.. raymond damn pretty after he make up.. NO LIES... really pretty if she i mean his muscle not so big lor.. he is enough to be a gal.. wakakakkaa.. here is de picture..

"JI MUI"

Chun fond been smash!!

D Junction

:: 22 december 2008::

2008-12-24T20:59:00.000-08:00

today we work till half way than go off ler.. kekekeke.. we went to fun fair.. OMG!! make me so pening dis.. tu darling lo ask me go play.. he arh. like no feel wan de.. plus mai de bryan also no feeling.. ishk.. like nothing happen.. me ar.. feel dizzy dis.. wanna vomit but cant vomit out.. than headache.. when go for supper also feel no mood.. ishk.. no next time to play agen.. if not i die tuh~

:: 21 december 2008 ::

2008-12-24T20:45:00.000-08:00

hmm.. today is TUNG ZHI but i'm having work.. haihzz... shit!! de company is damn ass de bahx.. ask ppl work till 10 pm.. what the.. i also duno how to say owhs.. ishk.. but after that we go back at 8 plus ler.. dis job really suck!! i hate it a lot~

:: 19 december 2008 ::

2008-12-19T18:21:00.000-08:00

Today is de 2nd day of working.. haihzz.. listen wan work at de place i also duno hot to say owhs.. hmm.. hope de time pass faster.. hate dis job.. wanna change new job.. if not i rather study owhs.. rayner & xp also goin our place to work.. they work with me n siew li.. hmm.. better lar if got both of them.. wakakakaka.. can talk more mah.. but see dao those shit worker de face also no mood wanna work ady.. cause too ugly.. those yang making fair in de middle de malay zai more better than them owhs.. i mean de face lar.. not other things.. fortunately still gt a fren can talk to me.. but he is work as sell phone de lar.. still gt him can talk to me.. if not i sienx till die owhs.. those work with us de so OLD.. talk wat? they all talk also is fei hua wan.. STUPID!! than today i no mood to talk.. dun wanna talk to them.. duno why? maybe too miss my darling lor.. haihzz.. but he is back 2morrow night so no need to worry ady.. kekekeke =] after work we go eat ryan brin me go lor.. and two more gal 1 is vai wen & vanessa lor.. hmm.. de vai wen very cute de.. she talks a lot.. and her face not bad de.. if gt de chance than take down de picture.. she wan us to go lintas eat with her fren.. when we arrive all de fren i also noe de.. LOL.. her fren is welborne(my boss), gao, kiat, ka lui, gan, mabel.... haahahahaha.. all i also noe ady wan.. hmm.. so funny.. than we saw yik(vanessa's) & soong(audrey's) them in lintas too~ so cant take them de owhs.. wakakakakakaa...

:: 17 december 2008 ::

2008-12-18T07:23:00.000-08:00

Today is my 1st day to work.. i never ever saw this type de shop wan.. wanna noe why? hmm.. de ppl tell us 11am arrive manatau we 11.10 wait.. no ppl.. than 11.15 go back also haven open.. than 11.25 haven open.. almost 11.45 only they all come n open de shop.. OMG wat shop lai de owhs.. 1st time saw dis type of ppl normally ppl is wan de worker to arrive early than dis shop can let de worker to arrive late de.. than de guy teach me de very... i also duno how to say owhs.. wakakakaka... when u all saw him arh sure laugh till can sit on de floor owhs.. ahahahahhaha.. no lie u all lor.. i'm telling de truth.. ahhahaha plus mai his face look like "andy lau" ahahahhahaha.. noe what i mean lar.. saw so many fren dis at 1 borneo.. hmm.. than got 2 ppl say i look familiar and ever saw me in fs.. LOL so funny.. i dye hair also can recognize me.. i also blur blur.. @.@ than nvm lar.. dun k lar.. kekekek =] as long as i love my darling n miss him than can de lo.. ryte?

:: 16 december 2008 ::

2008-12-16T05:26:00.000-08:00

Today oioi till quiet late cause yesterday with my darling on webcam.. so miss him but still can see him lar.. he so funny.. keep on make me laugh de.. haahahhaa.. i love him so much.. until today morning also bu she de to wake up.. after wake up kevin call me than i go out with him to buy selina stuff and my private stuff.. kekekeke.. erm.. we two saw edgar.. OMG >.< you know what is he choosing mah? he is choosing "panty" wakakakakaka =] so funny.. hmm.. than kevin at my hse teach me play guitar.. so pain dis my finger until it turn red.. why kevin can play so good y i cant wan.. ishk.. i dun believe it.. one day i sure can play better than kevin deh.. i BELIEVE!!! ahahahahaa... kevin 1 day i'll beat u down and play better than u.. YES!!!! thursday gonna start work ler.. hmm.. but scared tired and cant find costumer ler.. haihzz but nevermind at least i've try my best..

:: 14 december 2008 ::

2008-12-14T08:43:00.000-08:00

morning wake up at 10++ also same like yesterday.. duno why dis few days keep on wake up de same time.. hmm.. yesterday night 4.00am oni oioi but morning so early wake up.. haihzz.. like de brain set jo alarm will wake up itself de.. nevermind lar.. de worst thiing is i wake up ler duno wanna do what.. stupid yann yuan~ go out? NO. swimming? NO. shopping? NO. yam cha? NO. clubbing? NO. i also duno i wan what gehx.. but dis morning i really suffer.. neck pain than got flu agen.. haihzz.. so feel like lazy wanna go out.. no mood to out... de thing i was happy is keivn told me that he had gf ady =] so happie to heard that.. i hope he will apprieciate it~ HE WILL!! i believe in him.. 2morrow gonna go out with kevin them.. hope can let de time pass faster.. not to be bored like "ikan masin" at hum.. wakakakakaa.. and wei jun & seng wei please be good as soon as possible.. u two love each other wan.. but just maybe got some probles between.. so i believe u all can do it^^ bday soon? c'mas soon? but i no feeling.. i just feel that CNY soon.. i love CNY much. why? because after CNY going kl to play lo.. shopping.. ahahhahaha... miss it~ hope de time pass faster.. =] now.. i'm thinking of joining a competition for compose song de.. erm. but my mind is still empty.. no song flew over.. i hope that i can get it as soon as possible.. so i can participate de competition in london.. i miss my darling so much.. hope he was here to share with me no matter happie o sad.. although de time pass very slow but i know the time can prove our relationship.. although sometime i'll think those rubbish but i tell myself not to think to much cause i love you so much and believe in you.. i love you darling~

:: 13 december 2008 ::

2008-12-13T08:14:00.000-08:00

wake up like normal at 10.30++ mummy keep on call us to wake up to go out for breakfast.. she keep on say she was very hungry but we all didn k her also.. continue our dreaming.. hmm.. but at last also wake up cause cannot tahan she keep on call so noisy.. ishk~ last night i sleep not really well.. i think i've dream a lot but i cant remember what i've dream.. haihzz.. maybe i really miss him.. today is de 1st day whole day we didn find each other.. hmm.. still long way to go.. =[ nevermind lar.. very fast to overcome it deh.. no worries =] jz now stupid gor call me.. hahaha.. he make me laugh dis.. very funny wan him.. he is de one oweyz say those thing very funny & very "fei" wan no ppl can beat him with those "fei cai" thingy.. talk phone with him also sot wan.. maybe is without him i need ppl to talk something fei with me lor.. if not i really boring duno what to do.. haihzz.. miss you darling~

:: 12 december 2008 ::

2008-12-12T09:36:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY shu yee.. all de best to you.. sweet sweet with ur samuel lor.. kekeke =]
hmm.. my darling today leave kay kay lor.. i'm gonna miss him for 1 week.. T.T but my daddy is back from korea =] dis whole week what i gonna do? work mah? but kinda lazy.. see how lar..

just now i open my fs account.. i feel touch.. my tear almost drop.. noe why? hmm.. jz 1 reason.. i saw his message from fs.. wanna go off ler still send.. send in phone ler still not enough.. hahahahaa.. i noe he is very worry me in kay kay.. but.. i promise i can take care myself.. dun worry.. i love you~

:: 10 december 2008 ::

2008-12-10T19:11:00.000-08:00

NEW DAY NEW CHANGE

Hmm.. today go lung lung's mummy shop dye my hair.. lung & vanessa also did dye they hair too.. hahahahaa.. aaron come pick us up.. he so geng dis.. we never tell him wher is de shop he straight away noe wher is it.. ahahaha... GENG!! so tired today.. haihzz.. dis is de colour which i've dye.. just RM70 to make it.. not like other a bit oni also need RM100++

:: 09 december 2008 ::

2008-12-09T09:13:00.000-08:00

Today morning i lie my darling i wake up at 12 plus.. actually is i wake up 9.00am++ than aaron fetch me from my hse and bring me go to his house.. erm.. than suddenly lung lung call me ask me to go out eat with her.. ahahhaa... manatau we all two also go aaron house make cake 1st.. this is de 1st time i make dis type cake.. hmm.. i mean those no need bake wan.. but duno wherther it was nice o not.. when night than i can test it ler.. wakakaka =] me & lung lung also got help to make it..

Tham ask us all who did help her to go city mall for lunch.. we all got lung lung, wei jun, vanessa, sarah, stella, audrey, edward, chang.. hmm.. we talk alot.. ahhahahaa.. than jasper come ans find us at city mall.. he talk talk talk than go off ler.. he say 2morrow go swimming at 3pm.. duno wherther free o not.. dun k lar tomorrow oni c how..

Haihzz.. my darling today feel not really well.. really worry him.. i wish i can stay beside him but... erm.. juz now saw his face really pale.. worry =[ haihzz.. hope he is okiee after today sleep.. 1st time saw him like that.. everytime saw him also like kids wan.. talk talk talk.. oweya talks a lot wan.. very 38 wan... wakakakak =] but today saw him quiet not biasa ady.. hope he get well soon lar.. love you darling =]

:: 07 december 2008 ::

2008-12-07T07:13:00.000-08:00

MOODY
Today not really happie.. why? erm cause of some problem.. i also duno how to say it.. i noe u dun trust or either believe me.. although u oweyz say believe me trust me.. i noe u really love me and i also love you arh.. but what can i say.. i already try to avoid from those guy find me wan.. not i wan late reply ur msg wan is sometime really got sumthing to do n fren call me i cant reply u early.. i really duno wan do what oni u can 100% trust me.. i really need to think 1 solution to solve it..

:: 06 november 2008 ::

2008-12-07T00:42:00.000-08:00

My darling =]

PROM NIGHT band (thanks to them)

jun,yuan,sa

lam,lung,yuan

BOSS yik & yann yuan

BOSS jasper & yann yuan

look like couple?

Here is some of the pictures for SM ALL SAINTS PROM NIGHT 2008.. haahahahaha.. we all so happy.. At last we all finish our scholl life =] we must start a new life from now on.. i was happy yesterday night.. thanks for everyone's support.. i hope that everyone same as us have fun in that night..

after the prom we went to BED.. hmm.. 1st time when in.. my feeling feel very weird.. hmm.. cause maybe too noisy lor not ngam me.. beside that's de place was full of smoke smell.. it was so smelly.. plus de drink so hard to drink duno why they all can drink it de.. YUCKS~ No wonder ppl say "heart broken" can drink a lot lar.. ahahahahahha.. hmm.. but i wan go in is wanna go in the place to look how it look like.. i've been go in so... maybe no next time if unessasary lor.. cause PROMISE someone ler.. =] ( but this promise is oni dun go BED arh ) jasper drunk ler yesterday night.. i talk to him he look like blur dis.. stupid him!! duno how to drink dun follow ppl drink...

:: 04 december 2008 ::

2008-12-04T03:29:00.000-08:00

today go lung lung's mummy shop make hair.. hmm.. next week oni go dye hair colour.. haihzz.. duno ok o not ler.. if gt colour scared need dye back agen.. dun k lar.. jz make it oni lar... erm.. wan become more leng lui mahx.. so muz pay for it lor.. =] haihzz.. today gt happy and not happy thing happen.. but there was a lot to say and i also lazy to say.. so i dun wan say it lor.. =[ just feel duno how to say owhs.. sad? happy? moody? hmm.. dun k 1st lar.. aiya.. hope dis sat have fun than okiee ler..